:: Nobody listens ::

Have you ever felt that when you have good news and you feel like you wanna tell the whole world yet you realise that you actually don't have anyone to share it with??

Oh I did...

:; I love it when it rains ::

Yeah.. It was so cooling today as it was raining since morning.. I would love to go out and walk in the rain.. Feeling the tiny droplets of water touching my skin. But I also love it when I just hand in my assignment which I just did. I feel so light, like as if the burden have been lifted of my shoulders..

I was watching MTV earlier in the afternoon while giving my brains a break and I saw Chris Brown's video. He was a vampire.. I could be a vampire too with my taring.. I have two sharp tarings amongst my many teeth. It was so sharp that when I was in primary school, the dentist had to saw it off a bit to prevent it from cutting my tongue or lower gums.. I don't mind being a vampira if it's a hot vampire.. Female vampire are known as vampira..

It's back to work tomorrow. Eventhough I was at home, it doesn't feel like it since I was doing my assignment. I am not sure if I will do well but I am not worried since I should just enjoy the temporary freedom...

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.........

Oh they said that it is not safe to go JB this week due to a fight or riot that might erupt. Is it true?? Anybody knows anything?? I am going to miss my shissha..

:: Malfunction ::

My brains is simply not cooperating. I wonder why. Since 12pm just now. I am only at my second paragraph. It took me more than an hour to compose an introduction to my essay that will sound nice. I simply hope that I would be able to squeeze in a few more paragraphs. Perhaps two or three more so at least my essay is like halfway there else, I can forget about sleeping...

Ayie would be having his Maths exams tonight and I doakan you will do well okie dear. Coz Insyallah if he does well, it would be a morale booster for him to work harder.

I've got class later tonight and Insyallah, Ayie would be fetching me.

That is making me happy..

:: Yippeee ::

Though I am feeling extremely tired and sleepy, I still wanna blog..

Why tired and sleepy??

Yalah, yesterday I met Ayie at 6pm and we went down to Ngee Ann City to take my event tags and T-Shirts for the Amore Women's Day out event for me and Ain. We are joining the 3 hr Aerobics Challenge. Wakakaka.. After that 3hrs of sheer hard work, I shall make Ain give me a treat.. She gets her second paycheck mah..

After taking the event tags, I had wanted to eat this Ayam thingy at Lucky Plaza. My hand were clammy and I had beads of cold sweat running on my forehead due to me being super hungry. Though I am in the process of losing weight, that doesn't mean I have to starve right? I lost 3kg already and I am determined to lose more. Fasting month would be my focus since we Muslim would have the privilledge of leaving work early. So can hit the gym.

So off goes Ayie and I to Lucky Plaza. There's this Ayam Penyet Ria at the 1st floor but my friend told me that it's on the 3rd floor, so I called her and she said it's Ojalali not Ayam Penyet Ria and it's bbq chicken.. We were so out amidst the Filippinos and Thais and Indonesians.. I could easily pass off as anyone of the three but Ayie?? kekkeke.. I have bad thoughts in my mind..

Anyway, we found the place which was a bit cramp. And we ordered this..



Our Ayam Panggang and Rice which is a bit ex at $6.

The verdict..



Sungguh sedap.. Sampai Licin Ayie makan..



The orange and lime juice is not that good. Taste very instant. We would try the Avocado juice next time.

Even the complimentary soup taste good.




Our kenyang faces.. Okie.. I don't look very happy here.. I'm was dreaming and Ayie candid me..

So after that, Ayie send me to work.

At 8.30pm, I thought I was early but no... I am late.. The shift starts at 9pm but three people were there before me to book the good shifts so I settled for 5am to 7am shifts.

I couldn't sleep in the room which is like freezing even in my thick hooded sweater and watching disturbia halfway due to the spoilt CD was definitely anti climax. So i endured till 5am and went outside to be the bai-jaga..

I read papers till 5.45am then I was in and out of conciousness for the next 45mins. I didn't concussed and comatose but I was so sleepy. It was so trying.

After my shifts ends, I went back to the restroom and then took a short nap and left the place at 9am. Reach home at 10.30am and I am off the work at 11.30am.

Crazy?? Definitely.. we had a farewell and birthday celebration so I had to come since I was one of the organisers..

The food catered by my mom..

And I reach home finally today at 6.40pm.

I am done with my Ab Psyc homework yesterday so tonight, I need to get my Social Psyc done. It's due on Wed. Tomorrow off day and die die I have to complete before 5.30pm as there's class tomorrow evening.

Su was on course and I heard the course sucks.. Kesian dier..

And to you dear.. All the best for your Ironman tomorrow..

And my bro, Hafiz started modelling lah.. LoL.. For I am not sure which bridal at Bukit Timah Shopping Centre..



There's one more session last Sunday but I don't have the pic.. Will do so later..

In the meantime.. I shall rest a bit..

:: I've grown older sis ::

It's my youngest and fattest and naughtiest sister 10th birthday today. I managed to squeeze in a last minute phone order for her birthday cake. I was so busy that I forgot to make a call or order online. Alhamdullilah when I called they said they can still make it.. So suker lah..

So today after work, I rush home because I wanna see the cake. And also to celebrate her birthday lah. I took 178 instead of the train and feeder bus and end up with a close to 1.5 hours of bus ride and aching back.. LoL..

So enough blabbering.. The photos please..



The photo cake by sweet secrets.. Cute kan.. especially when all lighted up..



Ira posing with the cake..



Time to blow the candle..



The cake upclose.



Cake cutting.. Irah was saying.. kakmar irah sayang ah nak potong muka irah..



The neighbours kids and nenek with the birthday girl..



While they sit and eat.. I was scheming..



Splat...



Abis muka.. LoL..

But overall it was fun..

I am on standby later today.. Since it's way over midnight now.. Working tomorrow night till 9am Monday morning. And after that I have to rush home and bathe then rush back to office. I can forsee a busy week ahead.

My homework is now 1/3 done only. So wake up early tomorrow. I better sleep..

:: Anorexia Nervosa and Racism ::

These are the topics for my assignments that needs be submitted on the 27th and 29th August respectively.

I am supposed to write why psychosocial treatments works best for Anorexia Nervosa even when it is deemed to be a biological problem. I have no problems talking about the condition since there are an abundance of information on the net and I've read enough to give me an idea of the condition but I have to go find out why psychosocial approach is the way to go for their treatment. I hope I have enough to materials so that I can blabber enough to make my essay a 1500 words one.

And as for racism, is it inevitable? Maybe since we are all guilty of being a stereotyper but then again, the extent of our racist acts or thoughts are definitely something that we can control. We must have a motivation or drive to make us kill or inflict harm to someone of another race right? And for that, I need a 2000 words essay.

I so miss my holidays..

It's Ira's birthday tommorow and I have a splendid surprise for her. Though she irritates me everyday.

And I need to go for a run. IPPT coming next Friday.

:: Maldives or Mauritius ::

We were thinking of going for a third honeymoon, Insyallah if we got extra rezeki next year. Perhaps in February. We made a compromise that we shall go to my destination after the wedding and his destination in Feb since his destination requires a lot more monies than mine.. So that is the most practical thing to do.

So me being me, will do all the surveys and research (padahal got homework to do tau..) about Maldives and then I was told about a nicer place with more things to do like Mauritius so I did research about things to do, places to go and the cost of going there and Mauritius is a tiny weeny bit more expensive but it seem pretty cool.. So now I am torn between the two.. Perhaps I shall present my research to Ayie and then see what he says.. My psychology training might just be good... LoL..

Anyway, I did catch the fireworks but I am a bit tired to blog bout that.. And dear!!!!!!! I buy you chocs..

:: Rise and Shine ::

I reach home when most of the people in Singapore are getting ready for work or school. I slept when the rest are busy studying or working... So did I reach home early at 6.30 am or was it late.. Technically late lah.. Since I clock almost 24hrs of working.. But it was fun yesterday...

I slept close to 7am and told myself that I need to wake up at 12.30pm. Cannot sleep too much since it will only make you more tired and lethargic. But at about 8+ I was awaken by sounds of drilling.. Waduh super noisy, then accompanied by Ira's voice and if that is not enough, the people above me choose on on this old school chinese songs.. Very Very loud.. Serious.. It was those very old nostalgic song.. Like our P Ramlee songs or dondang sayang lah..

I thought maybe they would lower the volume but they didn't lah.. It gets louder.. Alahai.. I was at the verge of going up and tell them.. Apek nyonya.. Tolong lah.. Wa mau tilo.. keje manyak penat.. lu ladio manyak kuat.. wa tak boleh tilo.. Kamsia..
But of coz lah I didn't. I force myself to sleep instead...

So right at 12.30am I woke up, wash up and then called Ayie.. He said... Yang you tak msg I bila you sampai rumah.. Kan i dah pesan soh message.. Kkekeke. Sowie lah dear.. Luper lah.. Lagipon I didn't want to disturb his sleep..

Ayie didn't ride to work since it was raining and he almost took leave as he's lazy.. Yalah, yesterday go back so late.. But his colleague fetch him and he brought his EZ Link. So later he will go home by public transport, get his bike and goes for his night classes. He's going to his friend Mak Andam house to learn how to tie samping.. Good lah.. Nanti he can tie his own samping.. He friend is getting married this Saturday and he is the best man..

Ayie's not working tomorrow and he was asking if I could take leave then we could go jalan jalan but I can't so he psycho me not go to class tommorow night so that we can catch the fireworks at Marina Bay.. I so love fireworks and I am contemplating whether to do so or not.. Haiz..

As for now I shall go do my notes so that I can finish asap and if I'm not called back tonight, I shall go Amore-ing.. So till then.. Have a great day everybody...

:: Is it early Or Late ::

The time now is 2.35am and I am still at work. I've been working since 10am this morning.. How sad?? LoL..

I am not very sure what time I am going home since we have to work somemore.. Maybe by then, the sun would have risen..

Ayie is on his way home now from JB. He went without me.. How sad?? He waited to fetch me but since I finish too late, we just abort the idea..

Next time we have steamed fish okie dear...

:: Counting down from 100 ::

Time really flies.. Super fast that is... In 100 days time. I would no longer be single. I would no longer be Miss Rosemardiana. Instead I would change my status to married and I would officially become Mrs Azhari... Insyallah..

I couldn't actually say how excited I am since the words can't describe how I am actually really feeling. Ayie is busy scouting for DJ and I hope he call Abg Jamal from MI Studios tomorrow and likes what he hear so that he can quickly snap that one slot left. Though pricey compared to what we initially wanted but when it's last minute you can't be too choosy and I am sure that the service they provides is worth the money spent. Of coz if we have something less pricey that would have been much preferred.

Me on the other hand is busy with the wedding cards. Email after email have to be sent since we really have to make sure the details are all accurate. So far they have been very prompt with their replies and Insyallah everything will go smoothly.

And my shoes.. I manage to change to a new pair. Alhamdullilah.. And Ayie even bought his belt yesterday. All at the expense of my working hours.. Kekkeke.. No choice since I don't have much time. The girl was suggesting that we get a wallet for Ayie also but he doesn't wants it since he already have a wallet which is quite new. And so no need to waste money on that lah.. Nanti when the wallet dah torn then we get another one..

And when he fetch me yesterday, I left my handphone with him so I was handphone-less till this morning when he pass it back to me and then send me to work. Thanks dear..

I think I am super tired. Why I say this?? I have been going to work. Were super busy since Friday. Sat and Sun were fully packed to. Now it's rushing from office to Amore and then followed by classes. Then I still have to ensure I exercise and then diet (though the weight goes down a bit but I don't see any changes so that means more exercise) for my coming IPPT and then I have chapters to summarise and also homeworks to be submitted. I really hope Allah will give me the strength and energy to go through all this. And I have to save more since I do not like the idea of spending the money for the wedding and then have just enough for my school fees. I have to ensure I have extra since we cannot just take things lightly. Savings have always been important to me.. Who knows my family needs to use the money urgently, at least I do have some to help them out.

But despite my tight schedule I still have my friends who will call me like Su to ask me how I am like Nor who even though seldom call but still do to ask how I am coping, to my ex NOP rizaliah who ensure she drops by to see how I am doing even though she might just give birth any moment from now... And siblings who never fail to irritate me every now and then.. And Zann who feeds me with chocolate (actually force) though she knows I am on diet and many many others who spice up my life and help me in one way or another. Dear, that includes you too...

I hit the sack immediately after I reach home yesterday and it was only about 11pm. Now I am sleepy. So I am hitting the sack early again.. (my normal sleeping time is about 2am). So that's about all that I wanna say.. Phew.. That was long...

Muakz.. Endure.. The weekend is coming.. (though I am working on Sunday night..). Hmph..

:: Aching Feet ::

My feet is aching and thumping all because of me wearing heels the whole day going to a wedding a bike show and shopping spree..

Ayie said I'm like a tai tai today. Walk gelek gelek with my bag. I said, don't complain.. You want me to step feminine so now I step feminine so you have to bear with me. Walk slowly and take five once every hour.. LoL..

I finally bought my wedding shoes. Went to Aldo then Nine West before I found the shoes that I love. A pair of gold shoes.. Really very gold.. I was really loving it...

But very upset now..

When I reach home I also excited lah wanna show my shoes. Then I realise my shoes blind. Two diamond pieces came off. One was still in the plastic bag and the other was like nowhere to be found..

It wouldn't be so bad if the shoes were cheap but we paid so much for it that I was a bit pissed. The hassle of going all the way there to get it changed.. Even my cheap $23.70 Charles and Keith shoes have all it jeweled pieces intake after months of wearing...

Looks like Ayie and I will have to make another trip down to Raffles City Shopping centre to get it done.. Maybe I should consider and exchange... What do you think??

I am feeling guilty and bad.... I was torn between my aunty and my friend. And my friend had to give in.. It was tough.............

:: Foreign Affairs ::

I am not going to talk about other countries today but I was thinking of switching jobs.. I had wanted to apply for a post at the Ministry of Foreign Affair as a Foreign Service Officer. But I will have to migrate to whichever part of the globe that I am posted to should I get the job and because of that, Ayie gave me a big no no. I would be working in one of the forty embassies in the world. Ayie is not willing to quit his job. So though I am itching to just apply and see if I can get through. They except final year honours students so I can even apply now but I finally relented since I think my relationship is much more important than the big bucks that I am going to earn.

Anyway, I was watching APM and I heard Taufik crooning. Without a doubt, Taufik is definitely better than Hady in terms of voice and the appeal. I don't know why but he is so appealing to me. Lagi, imagine if he sings for you.. My Ayie also sings.. And he sings well but he sings to himself.. LoL. Not to me lah..

It's the National Day today...



See some patriotic stuffs here.. It would be so cool if I could attend the parade.. But no tix so kim salam.. I would love to catch the fireworks but, the place would be so pack kan.. How to.. Haiz.. Sedih Sedih..

Since that's the case, I think I just lepak at home lah..

Happy 42nd Birthday to Singapore and us, Singaporeans..

:: A quick wrap up ::

Okie, this is like the wrap up for like two weeks events since my pics are all with Ayie. The difficulty of getting my pics and taking nice pics, makes me want a cammie even more...

So first up was my first kampung wedding at Ulu Tiram. Despite not knowing anybody there, except for Ayie's aunties that is, it was really a nice experience. I got to know some of Ayie's uncles and even his grandfather.... The hospitality they extend to me was really much appreciated.

We met up with Ayie's aunty at Kampung Kurnia, JB, then his aunty drove us there.. Mak Idah drives like F1. So the laju lah.. Upon arrival, I went up to meet Ayie's mom who was busy introducing me to her relatives and friend's. Suddenly I became popular.. Wakaka..

We waited and waited. I was busy looking out of the window and straining my ears, for the sounds of the kompang.



The khemah with the tables and chairs for guest to eat. I was kinda amused at the helpfulness of the kampung people. Even kids were helping out. They really have the semangat gotong royong that is fast becoming extinct in urban Singapore. I really hope during my wedding, the semangat gotong royong is there. That makes the wedding much more fun. lebih meriah lah katankan..



Ayie, jadik mat tepi pintu..

After like roaming around and walking here and there, I heard the kompang. I also quickly rush to the door.



There is the kompang...



The pantin in blue..



The pantin in a matured couple. So it was very simple.. No pelamin and all..



See the kompang, even after the bride and groom take pics after pics, the kompang is still playing. Very good..



Me sit one corner, watching the spectacle in front of me.. Sopan sungguh I nie eh..



Atok Ayie, Cik I donno what her name is (forget oredi), donno who is that pakcik, Mak Idah, Ayie and Ayie's uncle.



Then I ajak Ayie roam around since I budak jakun lah.. Been like so long since I go kampung and I was excited when I saw the wooden houses. Behind me was a big rambutan tree with many many rambutan..

After that we also left for home...

Okie now that is done, we shall fast forward to Saturday's wedding.. It was my classmate's wedding.

Abdul Ghafur Khan and Nur Syahidah...

All of us decided to meet up so it's like a small class reunion.. Let's take a look at the pics..



Anum and I



Peter and Zohri



Vinod, Peter, Zaly, Zohri, Elysee, me and Anum. We were all in the same Malay class, except for Elysee that is..



Hussien (Ghafur's bro who was also my classmate), Vinod, Peter, Zohri, Ayie, William (Elysee's bf), Elysee, Me and Anum



This was a candid shot by Anum. I don't know what I'm trying to do here.. Were waiting for our turn to take picture with the bride and groom...



Ayie and I...



Ghafur and the bride, Nur.. I like the bride's baju.. Very nice..



Our group photo minus Zohri and Peter who left early..

Okie, so that's about all.. Now I am wondering if Su and Bean is back in SG from their Bali trip. She didn't reply when I message her and now I am kinda worried you see, coz don't know if she is safe and sound...

So Su, if you read this... Message me ya...

:: It's the Weekend ::

It's Saturday finally.. Next week, we will have a public holiday... National Day.. I wanna go for the fireworks.. Fireworks, fireworks..

Anyway back to my week, my Wednesday Kickboxing was bleargh. I didn't enjoy it that much and I wish I didn't go. Should have just gone to Civic Centre Lo class by Jet. Anyway, No more kickboxing for me.. Too routine and monotonous.

Thursday was ops day and the weather was so hot.. We ended quite late. I only manage to get myself home at 11pm.

Ayie called me when I was on my way to class yesterday.. They is getting a complimentary trip by SPF to either Genting or KL. You can bring a partner for $200. They can opt for October, November or January. So we decided that we would go in January. October and November we haven't get married so takleh lah share room kan.. So it would be like our second honeymoon. Best kan.. We go Genting since KL is so city like. The last time I was in Genting was way back in 2003. Nor and I mending a broken heart. Lol. We didn't get to play at the outdoor theme park as the weather was bad. Best lah..

My Abnormal Psychology class was yesterday. I didn't know what to expect and I didn't have any friends. I was all alone. Zann didn't take Ab Psyc since she took Bio. So I didn't have company.

Anyway, Ain said Ab Psyc is fun but then it was actually superb. The teacher was hilarious. I was like laughing and laughing throughout the class. Despite being tired after rushing to Amore for an hour of Aerobics then lugging my heavy bag to class, I didn't even feel sleepy. Since I didn't take Ab Psyc 1 and the leaves me clueless about the first three chapters, I asked the lecturer to mail me the notes for Ab Psyc 1 and she agreed. Yippee.. That's so nice of her.

Today is Ghafur's wedding and it would be a reunion for all of us classmates. Si Ling Classmates that is.. Insyallah everything goes smoothly for Ghafur and the marriage would last him for eternity..

I shall post up the pics later when I get back. As for now. I need to get ready. Meeting Ayie at 1.45pm. By the way, Hafiz Maggi taste so good. I had two slurp... Yummilicious..

:: Good Job Mr Policeman ::

I am so proud of Ayie at this very moment. His hard work, sleepless nights due to working late for almost a week and not being able to spend time together finally paid off.

It's out in the news - Police arrest couple involved in thefts in Sembawang and Woodlands. Read the news :: here ::

On another note, I started class last night and I was glad that we actually enjoyed the lecture. My lecturer was one funny woman and I hope her craziness and humour is not a one night show only but will continue throughout the next 6 lectures..

I wanna update on my first trip to a Kampong wedding in Ulu Tiram but I don't have the pics with me.. Oh, I need a cammie very badly. I will get it soon.. Su and Bean going Bali tomorrow.. Enjoy guys..

I'm done, till another day...