Soulmates, Buddies & the Wives' Club

So what am i gonna talk bout today, well before i go to my main subject, i was so pissed with this rude lady at metro. I went to metro wit li hua to buy my foundation and loose powder frok Loreal. And if we charge it to UOB debit card, u'll get a free concealer. The promoter was talking to us when this woman (lady is a title meant only for those who deserve it) suddenly cut us. So the promoter had to serve her...After bout 15 mins i went over to the promoter and tell her if we can take our products first since we are in a hurry. The promoter ask the woman to give her 2 mins and the woman can still reply I am also in a hurry. The promoter ignore her and entertain her. I then said loudly, wat a rude woman... Lihua stared at her and we left... Where are all those manners and patience that we singaporeans should possess... Let me introduce to all of u my frens...The people who i am still in contact after years of friendship...

First are my soulmates... they are the ones whom i share my heart and soul. They are always there to share my joy and sadness.. I reallly appreciate them. I knew Li hua and Ezzam since primary 3, and that is like 15 years ago, I knew Hasinah in Sec 1. It was quite surprising that i grow so close to them since i was in different stream with ezzam, Sinah and Lihua. i graduated first but our ties remains strong through time..

These buddies of mine, from top left, ayid and bal, arwah aat in grey behind me and wan in red (only those impt ones are mentioned... Oops) are my friends since poly. Didn't know i can be such good frens with these four guys.. It was a sad thing though, that arwah aat passed away on the 14.05.2002. We are still friends now, eventhough, ayid and bal are attached oredi.. tinggal wan..kene kerja kuat skit dier tu..

The wives club are actually all ayie's friends wives...Kiter jerr yang blom kawin..muakakkaka...There is Suriya in pink, Nora in stripes and Zam sitting down..member got married in Sept after 10 years together..power eh.. And one more is Jariah...(we have got to take pictures together ah gal..satu gambar pon tarak ah..) Very nice gals,...Very kecoh indeed...Kinda close to Suriya since we often go out together. The other two keje shift so, the timing a bit hard..Glad to get to know u gals..

Itulah org org yang skang nie ader in my life...So next time anymore addition..I'll post it...No new pics sebab battery charger is with Ayie...He forget to return me...So till next time..

Forgiveness

I am sitting down at the DST room waiting for my Nasi Goreng Killer and Teh Halia to come... Abg Md Nor was kind to actually take my order since i was stuck at the front counter doing some stupid, smiley receptionist cum information counter job. Or some high class places call concierge..

Found out that Abg Shafiq had a blog. Well Well was kinda surprise but come on rose, he is more into computers than you, so of course he will have one... And not some ordinary one, it is filled with complicated everyday stuff...Well of coz typical for someone who loves CNN and the likes. Unlike me, the only part i read is the LIfe, and sub papers such as Urban, Mind your Body and in those extreme boring days, such as DST i even read Classified ah.

After Shafiq's blog i hop over to Jariah's blog, her entry bout asking for forgiveness during hari raya reminds me of the conversation that my family have the other day. We have never practice this asking for forgiveness thing except for the only one occassion where my mom ask us to do it. It was also very informal. None of those on bended knees stuff, i just go over to my dad and said 'Pa, Sorry eh pa....Kekekeke' laughing and giggling as i say it. And the ones i did with my relatives was the so not emotional routine kind where you just do for the sake of doing.

As i listen to stories of how other people's family go through that solemn and magical moment of asking for forgiveness from the people closest to them, that is their family, these people whom you have definitely hurt and offend. It is actually the essence of Hari Raya. It makes me think if i am losing out on these moments. The teary eyes session, the sobbing and hugs that follows. Are we too modern for a family.

I would definitely love to do this but the fact that it was not being practice makes u feel uncomfortable and odd. And me being the gembeng one (i look like a tough cookie, but actually a lemau), i would definitely break down. Even before opening my mouth. So perhaps one day things might change but i really think that when the change finally comes, I will be the most awkward person to start with.

My Office

Okie i was at work today and i was really really tired after the ops last night...Ayie was nice to actually come and fetch me though it was already late at night...Thanks dear...Like i said..I really appreciate it...

My office has become like a second home to me..I was bored just now so i take pictures of my office...There

are only three of us in the office, Lynn, Cynthia and me..So when they are not around like just now, i was pretty lonely in the big office..

My own corner..

The bored and sleepy me..

My fav shelves...It has the mugs that i kebas, the flowers Ayie gave me for my birthday and also the sweet pink card from Ayie...

Tis red plush soft was bought for $7.90 at this shop at beach road..I actually go all the way there just to get this as i was so in love wit it...Gals... As always..Follow the heart..

The monkey here was given to me by Ayie. he bought this during his trip to Penang for the 3 Nation Ride last Sept..

Me sleeping..Thanks edwin for using my cam and snapping this...Ngantok giler ah...tak tahan...

That is my office....Hmm Nice??

My First Day Back at Work

Argh...It was bad.. I practically had to force myself to wake up in teh morning... After two weeks of late nights, My bio clock are all messed up. To make matters worse, today is also dragnet...Wat a way to start the week. Since it was dragnet, i dress for the occassion to ensure that i won't feel hot and sweaty during ops. So i chose my Timberland boots, OBS Polo Shirt and my tattered jeans.. (I just love those jeans)

Today ops was quite fun, Azman and me actually did a lot of stupid stuff..Running after the mangkok in the forested area not once but twice. Lost my Kipas somemore...Damn..But it's okie, i have one more.. Then we had dinner at Seoul garden..Cynthia, Lynn and me had a one for one voucher so Azman, Rizal (Lynn's Hubby) and Kelvin)join us. I ate so much, i almost burst, ot was fun though. But OC had to spoil the fun by asking us to go back early. Wanna use the van..When we came back, the other van was there... Hai.. Apalah nasib..

No pics since Ayie have my cam with him..Perhaps more pics when i get my cam back. Donno wat time before i can knock off...I heard after 12. Well maybe just catch America's Next Top Model at the restroom.. Jariah. try making the bubor sugi..It should work..muakakak and Suriya...Dapat tak ayam...Now need to go toilet....Poof...

Geylang Si Paku Geylang

It was a twist of events yesterday... I was supposed to watch movie wit Ayie but cancel since he wanna do his terawih. though i was actually disappointed, i pretend that it was okie since it won't be fair if i stop him from doing his religous duties...So in the evening help my mom and dad to load the many boxes of potato chips...My mom is selling the potato chips and half of my living room is full of the chips...(Buka nanti aku nak makan ah..Yummy) So when i reach home, check my phone and tadaaa...A message from Ayie...He's gonna do only 8 rakaat and he will pick me up at 9.15. Apa lagi dgn cepat aku siap... Then 9.10 he msg me, yang blom kul 9 dah abis lapan rakaat, i buat sampai witir skali eh...So kesian aku dah siap tak jadik kluar...Apa lagi on computer ah..Nak tunggu lama lagi..

Wan was on MSN, so chatted with him for a while..He said why i did not meet up with them. It's been a while since they last saw me. Well i actually have a group of frens, all guys whom i am very close in poly. There are Bal, Wan, Ayid and Arwah Aat who was my bf then. They really were the ones who will stand by me whenever i am in need. Eventhough they always disturb me, i know that they do care. So i told wan, bukan apa, i wanted to meet up with you guys many time. Everytime i'm in town i would tell my bf that maybe we should meet u all but when i think that yan (my ex) would be there, i change my mind. He said i cannot do that. "Takkan pasal Yan kau nak bilis kiter sumer.." Haiz sedih dibuat nyer...So i told him next time after raya i will make a point to meet them..

So bout 10, Ayie call me, ask me to go down since he is coming over soon. Dah turun we discuss where to go, Movie definitely cancelled since dah takder time so he decide we go Geylang. He wanted to buy baju kurung for going to the mosque...So off we go..

Wah geylang pack jugak eventhough it was about 10.30 already, Beli baju kurung dier, sampai dua dier beli.. murah jerr $10..Then he buy this Arabic Song Cd (macam paham jerr bf aku nie) and i as always buy ayam madu and kropok lekor. Makcik jual kropok lekor tu, org mintak $1 dier bagi macam $3. Haiz rezeki lah katakan... Ayam madu pon sedap...tak macam yang tuari beli..Abis sumer kiter gie carpark dudok seblah motor makan...Haiz sedap tol ayam nie.. Kepala tgh migraine pon tak ingat.. Dah kenyang kiter pon balik...Dah kat SLE, in the middle of expressway, we smell kemenyan...It was very strong..In my mind was sapa bakar kemenyan in the middle of the expressway..so i just kept my mouth shut. Ayie was looking at me from his mirror, we just go home as per normal..

Once home, Ayie call me and we chat for a while (kadang tak tau apa yang kiter bualkan..ader jerr topic) so he ask me bout the kemenyan thingy...Sempat lak citer pasal antu...Dah kul 2 pagi citer antu...I keep looking at the window..Seram jugak..skali ader benda timbul jerr...makan obat tros tido..tak sadar...Ayie said he call me at 6+ in the morning i was mumbling..Didn't even remember talking to him on the phone..

Now a new look for my blog again..I just love the baby sleeping..So serene..moreover it's big. So to those who read my blog..Please feel free to leave your comments on the new outlook eh...Boi Boi...

Pheww..

I'm currently breathing the air of freedom...It feels so good after i finally finish my exams. After slogging so hard, it was all over in 2 1/2 hours...


Well i was pretty sad that the paper did not turn out as i was hoping. And i felt cheated. While reading the preparing for exam book, it was stated that topics covered in the assignment would not be tested in the exam and alas, when i saw that paper, not only those topics were out but there were two questions on Identity. Wat the F***, they should at least have a variation of the topics, why two question on the same topic??? Well if that was not enough, the chapter that i learn from book 2 did not even come out. My eyes almost pop out...I studied Languange and Meaning so hard and yet the chapter on dyslexia and Bowlby's attachment theory was out.


Looking at how things turn out to be, i will force myself to start studying early then next year. Make sure that i study everything..sometimes it does help to be kiasu...Kekekke...Ayie was talking to me last night that he is interested in studying and was thinking bout getting a diploma. I gave him the thumbs up..I mean why not since it is good to upgrade himself. I suggest that he take Police Studies since it is a good thing for his career. He said that he will apply next year and i pray hard that he will get it. Insyallah...Then we can even study together...Kekkeke another reason to spend some quality time with each other..


Hmm after all two hectic weeks of chaos...I just wanna wind down and relax. Maybe catch a movie with ayie later...But he still haven't decide if we are going after buka or after terawih...And i am also looking forward to go Boxercise with Li hua after the fasting month...Who knows i may just end up with a hot bod..Muakakkaa...Ciao..

My Brother

While I'm busy studying...My bro, Hafiz is busy helping my grandma with her gardening... Was so bored so i decided that we'll take pictures...

My bro and nenek...Both the garderner

I am actually quite blessed to have a responsible and hardworking bro. My bro Muhammad Hafizuddin is 15 years old this year. He is very heloful around the house and thanks to him, this year my house have a new coat of paint... (rumah aku nie macam HDB, 5 thn skali baru cat...). Apart from that he is also a joker...Ade jerr jokes bodoh dier.. kadang sakit perot di buat nyer...Tapi takper lah kan kalau tak boring lak kat umah nie..

Haiz later i am back to studying...Yesterday then i found out that i actually need not study all chapters as the essay questions are only topics not included in the TMA...I've been wasting a lot of time then..So no choice..Just study one more chapter and go through the rest...That's it..

Striking a pose while studying..ekkekeke

I'm all stressed up

Shit...It's already tuesday and i tot it was only Monday. I simply lost track what day it is now....I have to work extra hard today then since i have 7 more chapters to cover before my paper on Thursday. Learn a lesson the hard way. Next year, i start early so that it won't be rushing like this...Please Allah gimme the strength and endurance to go through this..

Yesterday night i spend 2 hrs talking to Ayie. Haha just like the old days. We were talking and talking bout how we met and the funny things that happen and he suddenly said "I am really happy with you yang...You really understand me and you are very nice.. Thanks for making me so happy." I was speechless when i heard that. All this while i felt inferior to his ex gf and I actually didn't realise how much he love being with me. It was really mixed feeling of happiness and guilt. Happy coz i made someone happy and guilty that i actually doubt his sincerity... Well human always not appreciative...

Well i am going to continue slogging now...Adioz..

Yippee

How do i look in tudung?? Kekekke

I am feeling very happy...Or should i say jubilant. The weekend was a blast...Went to JB wit Su and Bean on Saturday plus yesterday went to JB again. I manage to get Hafiz his tall songkok. i tot he will stop bugging me but alas i was wrong..Now he is bugging me for a brooch. Thanks to my big mouth also for telling him that a brooch will make his songkok even better.

We did go to arwah tahlil but was late. By the time we arrive, it was already time for buka. The food served was nice, Nasi jagung wit sambal prawns, ayam masak merah, sayur with sambal kacang. The food is not the main thing that i wanna talk about, it's wati, arwah's wife. I admire her for her strenght. Even when she is under such mounting pressure, she can still smile and laugh while relieving the courtship period and how arwah pamper her. If i am in her position, i doubt that i'll have the courage that she possess. Now, Ayie is already pampering me, giving in to my whims and whams. I definitely appreciate it. I really do not wish to even think further. I'll always pray for his safety whenever he is out.

And my blog, thanks to Su for telling me this blog of mine is boring...Muakakak..now it comes with music ah Su...Don't pray pray. And to dearest Jariah, your blogskin site really helps. I manage to learn how to edit the HTML code to include the music. Haha maybe thanks to my MZSZ150 tutor Miss Fanny of SIM, at last that JavaScript lesson helps.

So i am off, gonna study again after buka...Haiz.. Can't wait till exams are over...So enjoy and do drop by your comments, positive or negative is immaterial as it definitely helps.

My Psychology Exam Coming

My whole body is aching...Argh...I came back late yesterday, reach home at about 1am. After washing up and stuff, I started my studying. I just love studying at night as it is way peaceful and quiet. Really helps with your concentration. Now i am done with four chapters of my studies. Still have 10 more to go. I really hope i do well coz i like psychology but i am still in the process of learning how to write good essays.

Yesterday trip was fun. It ws a pity that i did not take any pics. Bean and Su was funny as usual. However, the star comedian for yesterday definitely go to Ayie, not because he is my beloved other half but because he was super comical. We were at this shop that sell everything that you need. Just name it. While Su and I was busy looking for tanglong (choker),Ayie and Bean was at the wig section. Ayie was busy wearing those female wigs. He looks super funny and bean was busy laughing his heart out. Both of them were really having fun...And at the end of the day, i bought two tanglong at a very cheap price. Only RM7 and RM 16.90...Wow...I should buy tonnes of them and sell at geylang...I'll earn big buks...Muakakkaka..Thanks Su for bringing me to IOI mall..

Later today our plan to go JB, cancel... We'll be going to arwah Noranzor tahlil instead. It's been a week since he left us. After the tahlil then we go Jb to isi minyak only..Okie I wanna go lek lek as usual...Boi Boi

I Wanna Love You Forever

Okie...That song by Jessica Simpson is like earwax. It's kinda stuck to my ears and it seems to be repeating itself and I can't find the stop buttom.

It's a boring day... It has been exactly a week since I'm on my so-called exam leave. Haven't been that productive...Muakaka But definitely thanks to Suriya, she's been around to actually chat with me on MSN. Suriya...Well she and her husband Bean definitely makes one wacky couple. They are full of jokes and all the weird stuff that they do. And going out with them definitely leave stitches in your stomach.

Talking bout going out, I'll be going to Fraser's Hill and Port Dickson in November wit Ayie and his frens such as Su, Bean, Zam, Yen, Wan, Cik Budin aka Sham...I heard Cik budin makes very nice chocolate cake..Oh cik Budin...Make some chocolate cake for me lah..I definitely Lurve Chocolate cake... I don't know how fraser is like but from the research i did, it seems a nice place...Close to nature..I like...

Waiting for Ayie to come over. He's been nice today. Bought ayam bbq from cold storage and chocolate cake that I've been craving for. My mom cook mee kuah and she is going to tapao for him... Sayang ayie...muakakak (yelah beli apa yang aku nak sayang...kalau tak...kekekke)

So now i'm off and away...Gonna chat wit Su...Kekkek Adioz..

Life......

In the Shadow of My Own Sorrow

It's sometimes funny how certain events that happen not only change our lives but also made us realise things that we jave taken for granted. The events that happen on Sunday and Monday was a real eye-opener for me. It was tear jerking looking at a friend whom we have grown so close leaving us forever. To see his wife who was always chirpy and happy, sob hard at the passing of her husband.

Now everytime I look at Ayie, I appreciate him more, the times that he spent rushing from work just to fetch me after school so that I need not take the long and crowded bus rides. When he ride all the way to Jurong to fetch me after work so that we can go out and my cravings for watever food will be satisfied. For smiling at me whenever I am down or angry.

To my mom, who always cook the food that i like when she is cooking fish so that i need not wat instant noodles. For not turning her back on me even when i yell at her on my moody days...

Yesterday's paper was pretty easy provided that i study hard. But it seems nothing was in my mind. i couldn't remember what i studied. My mind just went blank. My body was super tired thanks to the hectic weekends. I just hope i'll pass the paper. Insyallah...

I am still blur about all this blogging thingy.. Have not really configure how to do this and that. Well perhaps i'll learn as i'll go along. But for now, it shall be plan and boring like this...Sorry...

Fragile and Unpredictable

In Perfect Harmony

It's been hectic this past few days since I am kinda busy studying for my coming exams. Eventhough at times I do whine about why in the first place I'm so itchy to even think of continuing my studies. But i guess it's the normal human being, always ungrateful...Well I've come to realise that not everybody have the opportunity that I now have and I should make good use of it.

I decided to blog since it's the easiest way to write my thoughts and opinion. No tired fingers since it's is way faster and relaxing than the traditional diary writing...And I can insert photos without the need of developing it.

A sad day today, Noranzor a friend of ours passed away. Innallillahiraji'un... I was quite shock and speechless when Ayie tell me the news. We went over to his place last Sunday for his daughter 4th birthday. And even earlier, Ayie just told me that he was also on duty. I really emphatise his wife on his passing. His wife is four months pregnant. I'll pray for her to have the strength and patience to move on in her life.

http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/172538/1/.html

To my Darling Ayie, I'm so sorry dear for being so impatient with you...For getting angry at the smallest mistake that you do... I'll control my temper better okie...