:: He's back ::

Yahoo.. After 6 days not meeting Ayie.. He's back.. Back from Cherating.. I am super duper happy... Su must be super happy too..

Ayie will be sending me to work tomolo.. Yahoo... Just can't wait...

I am still not done with my homework.. Hopefully i get it all done my tomolo...

:: So Disoriented ::

I'm simply disoriented.. I've been hit my the 'I'm missing you badly' bug. At this point of time, i am really hoping that Ayie is back in sg. The last time we met up was last tuesday. So it has been like 5 days... Sometimes it's funny when u quarrel and argue with your loved ones and then longed for them when they are away.. I am not the only one here. Su is also missing Bean. Yes.. Both Ayie and Bean are in Cherating for the bike trip. Humans are so complicated.

Yesterday was not that bad since I had Su for company.. We went to Seoul Garden at Ngee Ann City for a feast. Then walk to the so called park between Taka and Wisma for some relaxation where we actually met Cik Bidin.. Then off to McDonalds House for This Fashion without the shopping spree. We both wanted to buy shades earlier but decide to wait for our other halves to come back.. A drink at Starbucks ended our day.

Cik Bidin and Su.. They are both in blue... Si Cik Bidin 'cui' apa tu..

Su and Me... At the end of the day.. Stomach full and bloated.. Legs numb and tired...

Later that night, Ayie's ex msn me to tell me that she called ayie but he did not pick up and she wanted her bag and jersey then carry on explaining the importance of those items. Then she said she wants to tell me so that there wont be miscommunication. Aww So Sweet... well Take lah your things.. It's yours.. It's also collecting dust since it has been abandoned for quite some time. The she said she did not want to meet Ayie actually.. I was like.. Hello u talking to the girlfriend here. But i was still nice. No point debating about this since there's no significance in it.

Now all i need is a phonecall from my beloved. He will do that near bedtime. He always does that.. So honey.. Call me soon ya.. I am waiting for your return. Eager like a mouse hungry for cheese. Whatever that means.. Okie, this crap. I'm off....

:: I'm tangled ::

I am going thru such shitty times.. I really hope Allah wil give me the strengh to endure all this...

Ayie is off to Cherating this morning... Went down to pass him the camera. Last minute as usual when it comes to him. He really need to be taught the importance of time keeping and punctuality. One day i'll just burst my head off..

Going out with Su later. Then after that do my assignment that has to be handed in on Monday... Now no mood to do.. See how after going out.. Got mood or not..

:: Assignment in Session ::

Wow.. I feel so relieved after i complete my assignment on Monday.. I think i did a good job but that is what i think.. Wonder if the tutor share the same sentiments.. well i sure hope so... Su help me read the asignment. Thanks su for taking the trouble to read my 9 pages long assignment.. Well that's endurance.. lol...

Ayie asked me to follow him to the bike shop in Bukit merah.. He wanna pay his installments. After that we head off to Sakura Intl Buffet. From marsiling to bukit merah then to pasir ris. Ayie was really looking forward to the buffet. He said he is shivering from hunger.. we really eat a lot there. It was on me since he had been paying for the past few weeks.. kekekkee

Of all the stuffs we ate.. The best is the durian puffs. OMG.. it was finger licking good. it is jam pack with soft durian flesh. And the oreo cheesecake is also good..

Look at us enjoying it... I'll just pop one after another if i've got no worries bout my weight... After we finish eating i stuck the two chopsticks in my mouth.. It was so funny.. I then suggest that we should take pictures of it.. I tried once and ayie go..... No yang... he laugh.. you are making a fool out of yourself... Alah alah can ah... No cannot... Must behave..

I was upset... haiz... In the end he relented.. I check blindspot and tadaa...

My mini fangs... Ayie couldn't stop laughing...

Then it's his turn... Take pic of me rubbing my stomach in satisfaction.. kekekke

While monday turn out well.. Tuesday was bad.. I lost my Triumph EZ link card while i was doing undercover.. I love the card so much.. It was such a sexy card... Ayie fetch me after work since i got no EZ link.. He came to fetch me though it was very late. He had to work the nex day. Appreaciate it dear. He reach home at 2am and woke up at 6.30am.. Poor you...

I'll be getting a new mouse tomorrow since my current mouse is giving problems.. time to dump it.. I don't want it to give me problems when i need to do my assignments.. So it will be assignments after assignments.. one down, five to go.. I hope that Allah gives me the energy and knowledge needed to do well.. Amin...

:: Unbreakable ::

I initially wanted Queen Of my Heart by Westlife since Ayie use to sing this song for me quite often last time. He still do it occassionally now. We are both fans of Westlife. Emo and boyband eh....


Since no Queen of my Heart, Boo Hoo, Sob Sob.. Unbreakable also okie ah. I like the lyrics. Insyallah our love is also unbreakable..

Okie better go sleep now.. I have to be at work by 9 tomorrow. Another Ops day... Dread...

:: Valentine ::

Happy Valentine's and Frienship day to everybody.

I have a sweetheart but no valentine celebration for both of us though. While majority of the human race go around with love in the air, both our days are as normal as ever. We are both working. Troublesome ah wanna celebrate when practically everything cost more than usual.

Shall be looking forward to our one year anniversary in June. As for now, i am back to my notes. I am still not done yet. There's class later tonight. So see ya..

P/S: Congrats Miss Jayz on her much anticipated pregnancy. Insyallah things will go smoothly for you okie.. Congrats to Deanz also, her hubby..

:: Monday Blues ::

I wonder where have all the taxi gone to. I waited 1/2 for a cab and the fact that my house is situated in the northern isolated corner of Singapore doesn't help either. Beside and in front of me are a few more pitiful souls like me who is waiting under the scorching sun for a cab. I end up calling for one but not after three tries. Perhaps there were many other who like me had a late night and end up being late for work.

The taxi came. A yellowtop. It wasn't a pleasant ride at all. He was speeding and squeezing in between cars that i wonder whether it's me or him who is late here. But nvm lah even though i alight from the taxi feeling pissed. The tots of my wonderful weekend ease all the unhappiness away.

Ayie came to pick me up on Friday. He just came back from his Aunt's funeral in the morning. He said everything was fine and it was a smooth journey home. Alhamdullilah. We wanted to have dinner at Teh Tarik in Jurong since we are in Jurong but the smart me couldn't remember the way. We end up buying durian after circling around the vicinity. Went to somewhere to eat the durian and chit chat. We both haven't been spending quality time together since we both have our own commitments.. It was really blissful.we went home at about 1am. Ayie have to wake up at 4.15am since he got duty for the Thaipusam.

Saturday morning at about 10.30am, Ayie called me. Well his dear girlfriend is still in bed as per normal. Muakaka. Tired tau. I woke up at 4.30am to give Ayie his wake up call. Ayie ask me if i am interested to go JB tonight and we can watch the soccer match. Wah just like old times. He asked me to call Su and Bean and ask them if they wanna come along. Su and Bean agreed. Well partners in crime kan. Left for JB at about 10.30pm and we spend time watching soccer, laughing and eating at Singgah Selalu till 2am. Well there's Shissha too..

See these two. Ayie smokes Shissa like a dragon. He don't smoke cigarrete but smoke shissha. no pics of me and Su smoking Shissa. Haha not appropriate to put. Must maintain out dignity as gals.. Muakakka


Sunday was Karaoke time. We had been planning for a Karaoke session for so long. Had lunch at Su's place. Her mom cook NAsi Ayam. Sedap. First time i actually go over to a fren's place for lunch on a casual day. Bob skidded so we went over to visit him also. He had abrasions and his knee was swelling. We advice him to go to the hospital. Well it's better to seek treatment before it's too late.

Karaoke session was held at Partyworld KTV civic centre. We sang our hearts out till 10pm. Su is a good singer tau. Not bad she sing. Ayie don say lah.. Happy when it comes to singing. And it helps that he actually have a good voice. He wont have problem when meeting my uncles and aunties ones day since they share the same interest for Karaoke. Bean was also okie. Sometimes nice and sometimes funny. As for me, i sing like a newscaster. Don't understand. Go figure out. we had fun though.

The celebrity couples.

All the Grammy's wannabes.


After Karaoke, we all went our separate ways since all of us have errands to run. Ayie and me went somewhere again to chit chat. We talk and talk and he mention about our wedding thingy. I told him i was kinda worried that i might not have enough. He told me not to worry because he have to save a lot more compared to me. He also suggest that we can share food when we go out so we wont spend so much on that. He will also cut down on his bike trips. Lets hope things work out accordingly lah. We also talk about what we did the past few days and he told me today was his first time going to a KTV. Debut performance lah..

See there's even fireworks.

The weekend spent really reminds us of the times we started dating. All the activities that we actually do together. Ayie called me just now and he was browsing through the pictures we took during our trip to the zoo last year. He said he was really happy. We both agreed that we should go for trips like that. To the zoo or bird park or science centre. Lame to some but well it is kinda interesting. I told him the next time i go to the zoo, i will dress more appropriately so i won't end up with the migraine,

That's about all and actually that's kinda long entry ya. I will be busy doing my assignment since i have two due on the 21st and 27 February respectively. I shall put in more effort since i really wanna do well. So that's it. Adioz..

:: A not so rosy Wednesday ::

After school Ayie came to fetch me. He made his way to SIM despite the lack of sleep. He only sleep at 5.45pm. Kesian dier. We then proceed to TTSH. My cousin and partner in crime, Nizam was admitted for Bisol(I donno wat it is called in English). It's not those tiny one for sure. It is a whopping 10cm one. I just couldn't imagine how he manage to wait till it's that big before going to the doctor.

All is well for him but we recieve bad news. Ayie's aunt, oteh passed away at about 10pm last night. She finally succumb to her sickness after battling breast cancer for quite some time. Ayie was very affected by it as she was the one who took care of him when he was young. She also had three young children. Her husband passed away many years ago. I tried to console Ayie. He was pretty calm. We left the hospital and proceed to Anwar's place. Ayie wanted to borrow his car but Anwar's sis was using it. We then spend the next 2 hours frantically looking for a car. At about 1.30am, Ayie manage to find one. I was so relieved. I was telling myself that i really hope at that point of time, i own a car. Then Ayie can just use my car instead of looking high and low for one. The cost of renting a car is also pretty steep. But a car has got to wait since my priority is to complete my studies. Ayie and I really wanted to get Mitsubishi Grandis when we settle down. Insyallah. A white one with tinted glass will be so nice. At that time, if someone close to us needs a car in emergency, we will try to borrow them. But we have got to trust their driving also lah..

With Ayie in his kampung, i was pretty lonely since i don't have someone to irritate and talk to. It's way too ex to chit chat too long since he's in Muar. I also advise him not to call me too often since i don't want to waste his money on bills. It's just not worth it. I feel bad he called me everyday when he was in Penang last September. He still call despite me telling him not to do so. His excuse, need to talk to me at least once a day. Yang Yang..

With Ayie away, I had Suriya for company. Kekeke, had dinner with her at Cavana.. It was fun and i came back with a super full stomach. Gonna relax first and then watch Grammys later. Goodbye my frens..

:: All is normal ::

First and foremost thanks to the peeps that gave me their opinions and actually took time to read my humble blog. Everything is okie.. Ayie was very apologetic if he had done anything that made me feel that way...

I had a great time yesterday. Thanks to my dear sinah to acceed to my last minute request for a jalan² session. We met at Causeway Point and proceed to have dinner at Swenson's. No movies since the showtimes were rather disappointing.. My stomach was bloated after that heavy dinner. I had breaded chicken menuire and sinah had fish and chips. We then shared a romantic apple crumble.. Yummy..

We were both in the mood for some shopping frenzy so off to Metro. Our first stop was to look for shoes. Sinah warned me that nowadays most of the shoes sold in Metro and John Little are made of pigskin. I then just felt like asking her to check the shoes that i bought two weeks ago at Metro and alas it is pigskin. I could feel my hair stand upon hearing that. I kinda just took out my shoes.. Sinah were laughing non stop. We then went to hunt for new shoes. I can't stand another moment with my shoes. Sinah kept giggling at my antics and i told her it's bad to laugh at ur fren in dire state. Why didnt the Metro or John little take the iniative to label those products so that Muslim consumers are aware of it. I felt so cheated and so wasted that i had to throw the shoes that i had fallen in love in.

The chaotic moments did not spoil our shopping frenzy. I even bought a pierre cardin wallet for myself. At a good price somemore. I paid only 43 bucks for the wallet that should cost $79 bucks. The price was mark down after CNY. Lucky didnt buy it earlier. Sinah bought bras but i didnt. No size lah. Had thought of trying those cheap ones but they only have in A and B. Maybe i should just stick to Triumph. My trusted brand.

By the time we finally feel tired and ready to go home, it was already ten. The real reason was that the shops are closing. We walk home and kissed goodbye. It actually help a lot that Sinah and Lihua both stay next to my blk only.

Thanks Sinah for that wonderful evening of cathing up. I forget all my troubles and worries the moment i met you. Even my aching body seems to heal on its own. I shall take my rest now. Tired after going for a jog just now. Miss Ayie lah.. Adioz...

A picture of Sinah and me taken early last year. See my hair still short kan..

:: Am i paranoid?? ::

I am not sure what is wrong with me today. Is the hormones in me going out of control due to my menstruation or it's just my insecurity.


I started off today in a bad note. I called Ayie at 6am to wake him up. Then i suddenly felt sad and asked him if he has been lying to me. Despite his assurance i was still unsure. I felt sad and was almost in tears with my unfounded accusations. I am not sure how i actually come out with all those thoughts.. At the end of the conversation, he still thank me for waking him up. He promise to wake me at 8.30am even when i tell him he need not do that.. He was so nice and caring and always there when i need him and to think i had to do that to him.


Arghh.. If that was not enough, i even sms him.
Yang... Please don't lie to me. If i ever found out that you cheat me, i will leave you and never to come back again.
He replied.
Da lah. Takmo fikir camtu. Buat pening kepala jer. I love onli u sayang...


I ended up not sleeping and was even late for work. He called me as promised to wake me up. And call me at every possible time to ask me if i have eaten and what was i doing?? perhaps in an attempt to convince me that everything is okie..

Told my colleagues about it and some said i'm crazy to even think like that and some said that it's kinda normal that at times u just assume that he is unfaithful even when he has been super nice..

So ppl, please enlighten me. Am i really paranoid??

P/S: While i am writing this, he called me again. (The 6th time today) To ask me what i had for lunch? Had i taken my medicines? What time will i be back?? How have my day been? And he ended the call with I love you and take care yang.. Am i being fair to him??

:: Dowan Go Work Tomorrow ::

Argh... My Body just feel so tired. Thanks to three days lazing around. Yesterday darling bring me for soccer at Tracom. Woke me up at 8am just to ask me to go soccer with him. The game starts at 9am. Dear dear, so last minute, so you.. After soccer was dinner and then off home. Ayie wanted to go town but i told him it's better that we go home since he needs rest. His parents coming back today so he will have lots of things to do. Well.. Apple of his parents eyes kan.. Kekekke... He called me at 2am to chit chat with me. Talk till 3am. Waduh.. Sleepy you...

Today another soccer match to watch again. And it was last minute again. We left at 5 to see the match at Marina South. All his ol friends playing in the tournament. Then we wanted to spend time after dinner but cancelled since ayie got tummy upset. He like wanna make up to me since he had been pretty busy and we seldom spend time together. He even made a list of things to do.. Go to the beach for picnic or just relax, go night safari, go tree top walk, go sungei buloh and fishing. All the one fine day list but we won't know when it is gonna be. He was also kinda upset that he did not manage to bring me to Sentosa for the flowers exhibition. It's okie dear.. There's always next year..

So love you dear and all my frens.. I wanna crash.. Adioz..

:: Ol Pics ::

I was flipping the old albums and i saw these pictures.. Very funny. Taken during Hari Raya 2004. I had my hair short due to the boredom. Now it's my ammo. I just need to say either you cut your hair or i cut mine.. Muakakka talk about being evil.

Me, Hafiz and Nizam starring in Nightmare before Hari Raya...

Holding the lead role is of coz me..

My all time favourite. My darling lil sister looks so demure and innocent. But in real fact... Beyong words...

:: Where's the sensitivity?? ::

Wah my second entry for today huh.. I was watching the news earlier on the comics that was published by the europe papers regarding Prophet Muhammad. It sets me thinking, why are humans so insensitive to other ppl's religions and beliefs. Even if the religion practice the most bizzare practice that one could ever imagine, we still have to respect and be tolerant. We are all living in a world shared by many others who are different than us. This controversy has definitely affect millions around the world, sparked by just a minority. I really pity the Danes who actually stays in other countries and becomes the dartboard for those who are affected by the comics.

I shall be neutral about this as i did not see the comics and i do not wish to blame these irresponsible people who published it. They are definitely lacking the intellectual quotient to actually do this so why bother. Only the author and the publisher should be punished not the entire population of Denmark. I am only afraid of the innocent lives that might be affected by the protest that could go out of hand. Actually, there shouldn't even be a protest as unhappiness should be settled amicably. Islam never promote or encourage violence. Hopefully things will cool down as fast as it erupts. Wishful thinking but i'll hope for the best.

Ayie's parents won't arrive in Singapore at 3.35am as scheduled as the flight was delayed. I check the flight info for him and they will probably arrive at about 8.40pm. Kekekeke.. Luckily Ayie has got this resourceful and efficient gf cum secretary.. Now he's off to Johor. I wanted Burger Ramly but he said that it is not allowed into Singapore. So no ramly burger for me. I was so hungry that i break my no food after 8pm rule. I ate one prata and one chicken patty.. Yummy... Now i shall laze around before going to bed.. Might not be waiting for you honey...

:: From Japan Wif Luv ::

Thanks to Kak Linda who bought me the Chocolate and marsmallow drink all the way from Japan.. Kekekke.. Very expensive lah in Singapore.. $5+ Whereas in Japan, at the US base where she stays.. It's only bout $2 bucks. Cayang Kak Linda..

To ayie.. Thanks for sending me to the doctor. I kene infection again.. Haiz.. Looks like my constipation problem will never end.. He had to wake up form his sleep just to send me to the doctor.. So baik.. No complains also.. Wanted to buy shoes on our way back but none that i fancy.. Ayie end up buying shoes.. $21 bucks only.. Wdl Central is known for their cheap bargains..

Slacking off now.. Ayie wll be busy since parents coming back today.. Kak don't prasan okie.. You are not cute.. Cute only when u send me more nice stuffs.. Adioz..

:: Wanna Have Sex Honey?? ::

I am pretty curious at this point of time. Is sex really that interesting that some ppl just can't wait to have more. To say that it is not important is really wrong since human need to have sex to produce teeny weeny humans who will in turn grown up and produce their own bunch of teeny weeny and contribute to our generation. The whole process of life cycle. But to be so obsessed about sex is of coz wrong...

There's this fella that i know of. Lets just call him Mr Dee. Mr Dee just can't lay his eyes on women. And when i say women. It's a general term of all women minus the grandmothers. But if you are those young grandmothers in your 40s maybe, then you are included. i really dread going anywhere with him since he will start looking and blabberig about them. Even those ugly ones.. At times it makes me wonder if he will look at cows in skirts. I'm not being feminist here but i definitely find the female anatomy much interesting as compared to those of a male. You don't agree?? Then why do guys go gaga over a women body?? Duh.. However, it's natural for guys to look though...

For Mr Dee, it's almost like an obsession. While lunching, his eyes will start roaming and he will start ogling at the gals. The breast or butts or whatever he lay his eyes on. There was this once we sat beside this lady. Her cleavage was visible and Mr Dee can't stop looking and talking about her. I feel so ashamed sitting next to him. I mean a little sex talk is fine but if you keep blabbering bout it and your sexual fantasies.. It's sick..

When there's no gals to see, he will share his sexual escapades which i am least interested in. Do you think i care about your sexual tryst Mr Dee. What you do and how it feels is non of my concern. perhaps you are not even performing since only ppl who don't do things well boast about it.

Now all i'm hoping is that he will stop sharing his not so sensational stories with me. Meanwhle, I shall just keep my fingers crossed...